Complicated

2010-05-29T00:22:00.000+08:00

tmd...can sum1 just tell me who is right who is wrong...

2007-08-07T23:38:00.000+08:00

today dear dear tryin to call mi but dunno how come i cant listen at all.. so sian sia.. then i heard dear dear say that today he do running and also dunno what basic close compact training.. i also dunno what is that leh.. haha.. anyway dear dear also told mi that he not doing night guard duty.. dunno what erm.. for what medic de.. i really dunno what is it.. anyway.. is not tat good one leh.. like anytime also have to go in camp even weekends.. my god.. like tat seem like worst than night duty lo.. gonna miss dear dear like hell.. anyway.. tml dear dear can book out tml le.. he say tml he will do what running n also road march.. and also dunno what dumbell one.. erm.. is it like that spell.. i think so ba.. haha..

tml dear dear will book out at evening time.. so good that he can book out...

2007-08-06T03:18:00.000+08:00

dear dear.. i will help you write a bit in here ba.. today dear dear book in le.. n was like he having dunno wat 11 obstacle thingy.. it seem like so tough for dear dear.. i heard tat dear dear had also hurt his leg again... poor dear dear.. he hurt n sick also cant take off n leave.. poor him...

today is mon le.. n mi have bought a present for my father n say that is you buy one.. my dad so happy.. haha... but somehow today we have some arguement..

dear dear told mi tat he call mi is the only ttime tat make him brighten his day.. i feel so happy.. thanks dear dear.. i think from today onwards i will try help dear dear write in here.. to update what he has done in camp.. n of course some of my feelings...

2007-07-22T09:11:00.000+08:00

but sianz is tt after the first book out on sat...i sun need to go back le...so fast lo...so sianz...the PTP training is so so tough lo...and hard also...haha...dunno how to survive...i also sprained my ankle...but seems like those sirs dun belive me like tt...haha...so sad right...

so i no choice but to run lo...luckly my bunk mates all quite nice people...got joke all day...like tt time den will pass very fast...haha...

2007-07-22T09:02:00.000+08:00

yeah...2 weeks of torturing have finally end...and everyone was so so so happy after those hard work we had put in for...like road march...running...doing dumb-bells, etc...tt day somehow everyone was so united, everything works well for particular day ONLY...haha...the moment i step out of the camp...i felt tt Singapore air is so sweet smelling...i also dunno why...haha...my parent send me home tt day...haha...

when back home where my dear is waiting...she surprised me with a cake...because i need to celebrate my birthday inside the camp so no choice she celebrate my birthday belatedlly...i'm so happy to see her...so so so so miss her...

2007-07-22T08:56:00.000+08:00

first 2 weeks of the NS was the most torturing weeks cause we need to confined in this torturing chamber for 2 weeeks...without going out...and now everyday need to wake up 5.30am in the morning and do exercise...so tired and still wan us to do this everyday...haha...

We are now in the PTP (Physical Training Phase)...means those who either never go / fail NAPFA will come in first to train up...

So hard and difficult to catch up with the pace those sergents are going cause i dun haf the stamina...but i will work hard...

2007-07-22T08:50:00.000+08:00

first day of enlistment is so so so boring~...go there with a sianz face...den when my parents and my gf had to go...they(officers) still wan me wave and say gd bye to them...cant bear to see them go away...like going for war like tt...haha...

food there was still ok...sometimes nice...sometimes not nice...sometimes the food not fresh...sometimes the drink will clear our system fast...(know wat this means?)

haha...

2007-07-22T08:46:00.000+08:00

for those who saw these blogs...dun worry...I'm still alive...hehehe...ELLO everybody...so long never contact le...miss me ma? so so so so so sianz...lazy to type...thats the reason why i so long never type le...haha...

all my frenz somehow like disappear into thin air leh...also never contact me...hmmm...or i not popular at all?

haha...

2006-12-17T13:21:00.000+08:00

yesterday went sentosa...went to siloso beach...play salt water, play sand poker...play 'green hair'...had fun ytd...haha...

changed alot i would say..changed from got something to see till like nothing to see...and also prices shoot up already...last time got monorail but now dun haf le...they create this new tram but need pay 30 bucks...wa...siao...haha

there's something which never had changed b4 ba...people lor...tourism still so high...haha...

2006-12-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

so fast thurs le...and i done so many mistakes...haiz...lose alot of my morale...but i think must like tt den i will learn ba...

this stupid colleague of mine say dun disturb my the other colleague...saying she too stress le...den i find it so absurd lo...everyone will haf stress de ma...furthermore i also never really disturb her ma...i just wanna ask her for something impt de...so stupid lo...say wat dun disturb her...

2006-12-15T00:04:00.000+08:00

found tt there r too many 2 heads snakes in my company...all saying bad about my supervisor...haiz...other department de i can dun really mind...but wat happen is own department de...wa lao...so stupid lo...say so many bad things abt my supervisor...haiz...really strange abt this company...

2006-12-11T22:23:00.000+08:00

today at work quite stress...cause supervisor fly to cambodia...having trip....so we dun really know wat to do...but she say just do...got anything den when she come back den see how...so we go do things O.T.O.T...own time own target...haha...just hope tt nothing will go wrong...

2006-12-09T20:10:00.000+08:00

last sat...haiz...opps...haha...had a GREAT day actually...haha...really...never bluff...sing songs...sings alot songs ok?haha...den when to D Tiger Beer? or D Whiskey? or A X O?haha...opps...just remember is D X O...haha...stupid me...

not i dun like...is just tt first time when to this kind of place...not used to it...not even used to dance...haha...only know how to dance sendimentaly...haha...jazz...cha cha...anything also can but not this kind...haha...kidding...all i also dunno...haha...

after tt...already 4 plus already...haha...den went to eat mac...haha...den when i went down to buy food...saw these guys blocking the way...especially this guy...still stare at me...he heng i not violent type...will go punch him...haha...i innocent 1 ok?haha

2006-12-07T00:44:00.000+08:00

today got company event...go watch movie...big boss say wat sdv must bond together...gif us 1 badge...there write 2 007 we bond...haha...no wonder he make us watch jamse bond...not bad show actually...but must see watch with who...beside me not dear dear...haiz...no mood...wei jian some more...haha...so er xin...so so no mood watch with him...

show end about 2 plus hours...den reach home already 11.45 le ba i think...whole day cant meet dear dear...so sianz...haiz...

2006-12-07T00:39:00.000+08:00

u like people keep calling u sex slave ma? make me sibei tu lan(very irritated)...wei jian start it first...but i never say him...is my the other collegue...wei jian will say but not always de...but this guy keep on saying when he wan call me de shi hou...

fuck lo...got name de leh...xin nu(sex slave...sex slave)...keep on calling...think he big fuck...always wan complain supervisor wat wat wat de....think he really good liek tt...

stupid wei jian...mastermind...wa lau a...really sibei tu lan...dun feel like going back to sdv le...so sianz...

2006-12-07T00:08:00.000+08:00

wat's the pros n cons of being alone in the company & 2 persons in the company...

Alone(pros) : -u get all the attention u can get...
-when doing presentation...will not be scared whether other people will steal ur ideas anot...

Alone(cons) : -cant really find some1 to talk n chat to...some1 u familliar with...
-cant ask frens when u don't know stuffs and feel paiseh always asking ur supervisor...

2 people (pros) : - *vice versa with alone(cons)*

2 people (cons) : - might not get the attention u wanted...
-push the blame to other person...
-get bully...

That's somehow wat i'm facing right now...smelled a very heavy stench of bias...haiz...dunno whether is it i'm thinking too much anot...no matter how good i do...i still get some wrong de...and no matter how bad tt guy did, he still haf the trust tt i dun haf de leh...maybe think too much...i don't know...haha

example : when i ask supervisor abt the work...den tt guy will come n stand next to me...den some how he got a attraction tt my supervisor will keep on looking at him n talk to him...HEY! is my work n u r talking to him? strange leh...

n the problem is tt guy not really my department de leh...so strange...

wth...maybe there is something tt i dun haf tt he have ba...and tt is TALK COCK ba...means talking gossip n making supervisor laugh...sometimes i feel tt school should put to some company tt i'm alone...

strange isn't it?

life's is like tt...when u dun haf something de shi hou...u tent to wan it...but after u haf it...u might not be thinking the same thing b4 u had the thing...

actually not only this make me sick...got other stuffs tt really make me mad...just dun wanna say out...just wan continue my life peacefully in the company n also of course with dear dear...

*Pls help me keep this secret...thanks

2006-12-03T01:10:00.000+08:00

today my dad birthday...haah...sry guys cant meet u all...

he treat us go sushi tei at serangoon eat...ordered katsu don (pork cutlet rice)...den after tt still went to the nearest hawker center eat stingyray...haha...very very full...their cup over there very very big...but it cost 3 dollars per cup of sugar cane...haha

den went to my aunt house celebrate my dad birthday...they bought a cake for my father...haha...think my father qutie happy for today ba...haha

2006-11-29T23:46:00.000+08:00

so long never post le...like doing big business...haha...but in fact lazy to write cause too tired...everytime come back already so tired le...so dun haf the energy to write...nothing much to write about the company actually

evryday doing the same stuffs...so boring...den my logbook also blank...haha...going 3 weeks never write anything le...den wei jian also everyday talking er xin de hua for me to listen...always corrupt my mind de leh...haha...

soon my supervisor going to take 2 weeks leave to overseas le...haiz...haiz...not i miss her...only tt w/o her i think the sea export will collapse cause by tt time will left me, wei jian and another colleague to handle le...haiz...dunno later lots and lots of compound(fine) send back to SDV den die...haha...only can pray hard lo...

2006-10-26T18:08:00.000+08:00

today nothing special...but my lunch is special...

why?

today got free buffet in the pantry...haha...they say every month will have a buffet to increase our morale...the food is nice...very nice...i told wei jian i will be faithful to the company...so when they wan me to work after i ns...i willing...

den he told me dun dream too much...u think they will wanna hire u meh...

2006-10-25T17:52:00.001+08:00

today go to work...supervisor was quite bz with her work...so she called me n wei jian go to a office to do some file-ling...haha...own office seh...haha...den we like the company boss...haha...inside no 1 care...we doing our stuffs...talk lame stuffs...den doing till like 4 plus...we so bored...so wei jian suggested we go get milo from the pantry...haha...big bosses...

get milo still got apple can eat...gd life over there...we happy talking n can still drink happyily...today work like tt end...haha

2006-10-25T17:52:00.000+08:00

2006-10-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

at first i still tot SDV logistic wu lu wu lu name...cause completely never hear b4...but when the operation manager say got 5 branches...i somehow shocked...haha...

today first day working...the operation manager very funny de...gif wei jian n me logistic quesion...example wat is NVOCC n IATA...haha...IATA i still know...NVOCC forget le...den still call us remember their operation team...funny sia her...send to do SEA EXPORT...haha...nothing much cause today my supervisor on leave...so i do nothing....my collegues so bz with their job...sit there till i wanna sleep le...haha...yawn so many times...dunno got ppl see tt anot...haha...if got die...later my grades pulled down...haha...

after lunch, 1 of my collegues tell me to sort up the job files in order...do some loose work...but not bad...cause i alone at a office...haha...can eat snake...

after sorting, still got time b4 my work end...so i helped one of my collegues to share her workload...helped her photocopy BL and also stamped together 2 sets together pending for acknowledgement...haha...

over all...got a new exprience for me...cause my first day as a office cleck...something like tt...

after work...so hungry...haha...so i meet dear for dinner...had something very full...

2006-10-22T01:51:00.000+08:00

monday going for IA le...stress is wat i gonna face soon...

going to SDV Logistics Pte Ltd...omg...never even hear b4...but who cares...just do our best...haha...

got wei jian to accompany...too bad not dear dear...haiz...sianz...haha...

everyone jia you hor...work ur best...dun waste GPA...

see u all after 4mths...hehe...we'll hardly haf the chance to meet i think...haha

gd luck n dun lost contact...

2006-10-12T01:10:00.000+08:00

i think every1 had mistaken me le...

i'm not tt gd tt every1 think i'm...

tt is only my false character...

i'm not mr. nice...

i hurt her...

tt is something i cant forgive myself...

i make her angry...

tt is something i hate myself...

i cant judge things right...

just hate myself to be so stupid...

sry to spoilt those who think i'm a gd guy...

i just cant be gd guy...

it is just so stupid...

i'm not everyone's mind de gd fren...

false information...

2006-10-10T19:53:00.000+08:00

DIE DIE DIE...is tt wat u will think of?
god wont help u if u r findin death...
god wont care...

haiz...i'm sorry i made u angry...
i'm just being sensitive...i admit...
i'm wrong...i admit...
i didn't care for ur feeling...i admit...

but

dun compared...

I'M SORRY~

2006-09-29T21:47:00.000+08:00

today really fun...

doing mascots again...

BUT...

with different people...

GUESS WHO?

my mother n small bro n me...

haha...funny right?didn't expect my mum will also work as this...haha

today early in the morning wake up abt 6 plus...get ready abt 7 le...father send us go...had breakfast first...den reach huamin primary school early...abt 8.30am...today got something special...nestle open a new stall at huamin primary...den got ribbon cutting ceremony...cose of this we need go there early...haha...so tired...

mother was so 'lucky' to be chosen to be the scissor giver but in mascot suit...haha...after the ceremony...mother told me 'wat a gd job u introduce to me'...haha...den we had our performance...actually my mother quite cute to be able to wear this mascot n dance so crazily on the stage...haha...those nestle people was like praising us for being so crazy on the stage...haha...

after huamin primary...we need to go to punggol primary to perform...was like so far den how to reach within 1hr leh?luckily it was my father's lunch time....den had lunch with him too...my father very wei da...he working at yishun but he willing to send us to punggol and had lunch even though he had a meeting afterwards...omg...

at punggol primary...all the children are wearing their best clothes they have...saw power ranger...batman...robin...haha...all so cute...this performance was quite ez for us...as only had performance and not ribbon cutting ceremony again...haha...

today's order:
mashed potato mascot=my mother
mashed potato machine mascot=me
milo tin mascot=my small bro

2006-09-25T17:18:00.000+08:00

just came back from work...guess wat i work as? ... ... ... ... ... MASCOTS ... ... ... ... ...

haha...weird right?

went to rivervale primary school to entertain the students...

ok la...new experience for me...had fun too...but its hot inside...everytime i take out the mascot...maggie will ask inside raining ar?haha...

work with zac and maggie...

MAGGIE=mashed potato mascot
ZAC=milo tin mascot
ME=machine of mashed potato mascot....

actually i can say it is ez money...cause we stand at stage the most for 15mins for each session earn $25 le...had 2 sessions today so is $50...haha...ez right?

after work...we buy some tidbits and slack at a void-deck....

went back home abt 4 plus...

2006-08-18T22:50:00.000+08:00

so long never update le...haha...sry lian hui...kind of bz anyway...but also dunno wat i'm bz at...haha

my nursing fren always say "u haven smoked ar?"
my answer to him is "no la...i wont..." i still say it in a very confirm tone...
but i was wrong...really wrong...

So stress nowadays...dont know wat to do...
i think i'm deproving in my studies...
ARGH....
STRESS~~~
Really feel like smoking...
dear always say when she stress she will smoke...to destress...

i also wan to destress...
haiz...but how...
always smoke as a grp but i was the 1 leftout...
inhale so much smoke also will die de...more faster than smokers...
so y not i smoke since never smoke die smoke also die...
haiz....

feel some tired, so stress, but will anyone know?

2006-07-25T23:52:00.000+08:00

IS LIFE SO FRAGILE?

IS LIFE FULL OF MISERY?

Y MUST GOD TAKE AWAY UR IMPT FRENS?

Y?Y MUST THIS HAPPEN TO U?

Y CANT I UNDERSTAND UR FEELING?

I DID LOSE MY RELATIVES...

BUT...

Y CANT U THINK POSITIVE?

Y CANT U THINK OF ME?

WONT U KNOW TT I'LL BE SAD?

IF NOT FOR ME...

Y CANT U THINK ABT UR FRENS?

AREN'T U HAPPY WHEN U R WITH ME?

I'M SORRY IF I DIDN'T MAKE U HAPPY...

I KNOW I'M A BORED PERSON...

ONLY MAKE U THINK OTHER STUFFS...

SORRY!I LET U DOWN!

2006-07-21T11:11:00.000+08:00

Summary

1. Gain alot of experiences over there...

2.I got feel moody/frustrated there cause of some reasons but it's fine now cause i know it's just tt i'm thinking too much le...sry to those i had been given soo much moody face...sry...

3.how to bargain...

4.watching movie in bangkok still need to sing their national anthem...etc

5.had lots n lots of nice food there n its quite cheap...

6.hardly see any cats there...^^

2006-07-03T10:32:00.000+08:00

5th Day~(3/7/06)

last day le...got miss this place...miss the food...miss the places...If only i can stay with dear but i know everything will be a Dream...JUST A DREAM...everything will be gone when i awake...haiz...

today is a free n easy day for us...had breakfast early as we didn't wan to lose any precious time for our last minute shopping...we didn't go to chatuchak again cause it was alittle bit far from our hotel...so we decided to walk straight down to pratonum shopping center...buy some stocks there and also buy some for ourselves...

then about time we went back to hotel to gather...

went to the airport n wanted to finished our Thai baht by spending it on KFC over there but cant...cause we didn't have the time...the moment we check in, we must go in le...so we decided to buy some sandwiches to eat...woohoo...100 baht for 1...haha... but we still buy n eat it cause too hungry le...

reached Singapore n it's already night time le...so happy my parents will come n fetch me...saw dear's father...wanted to tell him "i'm hy's bf"...but i didn't cause i dun wan make any trouble for dear...so i only can mo mo de wave goodbye to her...haha...sad case...

mother say actually wanna bring me go eat swensens de...but say i too late den come out...den don't wan le...haha...sad again...den only can go eat E-mee...haha...but nvm...cause i also too tired...went to sleep...ZZzzz...

2006-07-02T21:28:00.000+08:00

4th Day~(2/7/06)

wake up quite late today...haha...was a little bit late for breakfast...teacher say meet 9.15am at lobby...but my grp members were still eating at 9.15am...haha...den teacher changed the time to 9.30am...he say if we haven get ready by 9.30am...he is going to go w/o us...haha...saw his black face also...so scary...

we reached Chatuchak again for shopping of our stocks...we spilt up our grp...cause if everyone stay in a place...we will slow each other down...so we spilt up n buy wat we think is sellable...take abt 4-5hrs there...but still think tt it is not enough...so we went back there again after our lunch...den it started to rain...dampen my mood...so soaked...haha...

went dinner with the big grp n Mr. Aw in a so called resturant...it has a very nice ambience...n the food was nice too...

2006-07-01T20:19:00.000+08:00

3rd Day~(1/7/06)

Today i so tired till cant wake up...Zac had answer the morning call but he didn't hung up the phone...so maggie was not able to reach us...wake up at 8.38am cause alot of them knocked at our door...they say we late le...den no choice...must hurry or else will miss our breakfast...when we were abt to go down de shi hou...some1 give us the wrong information, and thus, my grp miss the breakfast eventually...haha

went Chatuchak weekend market and bought 2 pieces for my mother...the rest i buy for dear dear...was frustrated cause it was cramped cause there are alot of people n hot...but it was nice cause i learn to bargain with them...we shop 3-4hrs den went to some resturant for lunch...the food was superb...the tour guide send us home to do some unloading for 15mins den we went to MBK again...so tired...and we still go to Platinum fashion mall for shopping...

Was a fruitful day for me cause i bought quite alot of stuffs for my relatives and family members...den went to Big C for some shopping...i only go there for some window shopping...haha...den go to the last floor for some "good food"...went to steak house for some western food...the food was ok...but their customer service SUX SUX SUX!...i angry qi lia...just put down the money n go...dunno got exact gif them anot lo...

went down 1 floor,buy some stuffs...instant noodles,batteries...we bought alot of stuffs...all big bags...so heavy...argh...haha...take Tu-Tu back...quite nice...haha...

Reached hotel abt 1am le...den still eating cup noodles...Nina went down to the nearest 7-11 to call her bf i think...den zac accompany her...but when they came up de shi hou...i was shocked to see another cake...they say it was for me...omg...4th cake i had this year...after the small but nice celebration by them...i went to sleep...but it's still so late...abt 4am le...haha...3rd day still so late den sleep...haha....dunno how will i able to cope for the last 2 days...

2006-06-30T20:51:00.000+08:00

2nd Day~(30/6/06)

today waked up 8.30am...scared i'll be late for breakfast...so i set an early alarm using my hp...9.00am the operator morning call us...was tired...cause slept late last morning...sleep only a few hours...went for breakfast at 10.00am...had scrambled eggs, sausages, pancakes,ham,a glass of orange juice...after eating my group went up to freshen up...all of us gather at the lobby for some briefing cause we had to wait for the bus to fetch us...

went to MBK...dear dear saw these 2 bags she wanted alot...cause it's winnie the pooh bags...but she hesitated...we shopped the place for abt 2hrs den meet for movie...thailand had a practice...must sing their national anthem b4 they watched the movie...haha...new experience for me...watched Superman Return...luckly they r speaking english...and the subtitles r Thai...the show lasted 2 1/2 hours...not a bad show but i doze off cause ytd never sleep much...still managed to watched the excited part...

after the show...we still have 2hrs of shopping...so i managed to find a wristband for my younger brother...dear dear didn't buy wat she wanted...she looked sad...

We leaved the place at 5.45pm...and went straight to Suan Lam night market...the journey took 2 1/2 hrs...wa...so so so so tired...but didn't sleep...also dunno y...haha...

went there to shop but everything looked so expensive...so just go there for some window shopping...cause maggie say tml we going to Chatuchak weekend market and tt place is more cheaper than here...and also wat they sold here...will be selling there also...

played ferris wheel over there..$4 per head...i'm sitting with my dear dear...only we 2...only tt time had gd quality time with her...so happy...but it was short...

Reached hotel abt 11pm plus...den went down to 7-11 to buy cup noodles to eat and i sleep at 4am AGAIN...

2006-06-29T22:49:00.000+08:00

1st Day~(29/6/06)

Reached Bangkok International Airport at 6 plus ...den we go directly to our hotel, Bangkok Palace...there is a standard...at least a 3 star hotel ba...i like the bed cause it's soft n comfortable...i share the room with Zac...he's really a gd fren...we do share problems together...

it's free and easy the rest of the day...so maggie decide tt we go to the new shopping mall named platinum fashion mall...but too bad cause it's already closed so we went somewhere else...

we walked down to the opposite of MBK...there's a few road side stores tt the stuffs they sell are quite cheap compared to Singapore...joyce,joycelyn,dear dear bought slippers...it's $4 plus only for a gd quality slippers...haha...dunno...maybe i dun haf the taste...but i dun think it suit them...but most impt is tt they like it...

after buying their stuffs, we went back to hotel...its already 1 am le...but i'm not tt tired...so all of us went to maggie's room for supper...we ordered room service...had 2 set of club sandwiches (1 ham and 1 chicken) and tom yum soup...dun like the tom yum soup cause seem like it had a weird smell...smelled like shit...haha...but most didn't really smell it...

it was abt 3am when we finished our supper...den went back to our room...but me n zac still didn't fill our stomach...so we ordered again...haha...called dear dear to come our room also...had chicken cutlet,fish n chips,club sandwiches(ham)...after eating this meal...i den find it very full...haha...went to sleep abt 4am in the morning...

2006-06-29T19:53:00.000+08:00

Story~

going to bangkok today...haiz...wanted to be excited...but just didn't have the mood...

1)cause ytd after wild wild wet...before going for my bath...i asked dear dear something...but she didn't give me an answer...i was bothered n sad also...but i didn't tell her cause she told me tt she was excited abt this trip...so didn't wanna spoilt her mood...but i cant remember wat i asked her le...maybe she did answer me...but i didn't heard...

2)Mr Aw give us alot of rules n regulations n also a journal to write...haiz...waste time...i go there for shopping/buying stocks...not really for school...there's a limit for us...cant do this...cant do tt...

reached airport abt 1.30pm...so envy of dear dear...cause her mother got send hongyi go...haha...wanted some1 to send me too...haiz... dear dear ask me whether i'm excited abt this trip ma?i cant answer her...even though i know i'll be excited cause i'll be going with dear dear...but i know confirm cant share a room with her...so quite sad...so not really excited abt this trip... we board the plane and it take off at 3.45pm n had lunch at the plane...had duck rice...not bad...

2006-06-28T22:04:00.000+08:00

went to wild wild wet with dear dear today...whole day...yea...was so so fun...but i think dear dear not happy cause i never go play again tt U-shaped water activity with her...she so sad...didn't mean to...but just tt my heart cant take it the first time we played...had a sharp pain...suddenly...okok...I'm WEAK...think tt's wat u all wanna hear ba...

played everything there...so so so fun...relaxing also...haha...played from 1plus pm to 6.30pm...haha...den had dinner at Tea Valley...food was average there...

2006-06-26T21:45:00.000+08:00

went to school for MP lesson only cause having test tml n also we slept 3 in the morning...haha...

teacher also never teach alot...just follow the book will do...den went for meeting at SEED center...talking abt the bangkok trip...yea...flying on 29th june...after tt...saw jason outside...he walked to me...i still thought he only wanna wished me happy birthday...den he took out a cake...shocked me...haha...2nd cake for today...

thanks everyone who make the effort to send me a happy birthday msg to me...me make so touched...haha...^^

on the way to my grandparent house for my 3rd cake, saw my primary sch frens terrence n nigel...haha...both went to NAPFA...wooo...both changed alot...almost cant recognised...haha...

2006-06-26T15:47:00.000+08:00

Y?

cause i meeting dear dear for supper...take cab there...haha...the cab driver think he jay zhou in initial D...wan act drive fast...haha....den i still never wear safety belt...DANGEROUS...haha....no la...just kidding...reached there abt 1.30am...dear dear gif me a surprise...she gif me a birthday cake...haha...shocked me...n also gif me sumthing special...was so so happy n sweet...after eating the cake...we play candles...haha...played all 24 sticks...haha...nothing to do also...but i like to see fire...haha...

went to the nearest 7-11 to buy some food...had laksa fried rice...smell was great but not tt tasty...haha...dear dear ate some weird looking jap rice ball...triangular shaped...(wateva)...haha...the taste is not bad...

den went to dear dear home to sleep cause is already 3 in the morning...

2006-06-25T15:36:00.000+08:00

went to airport with dear dear today...haha...airport de T2 changed alot leh...suddenly cant find the old place i went b4 to study...haha...gd boy right?

we study for the incoming MP test...but now starting to forget everything le...haha...den also slack there till abt 6pm plus...

went food junction at CS for dinner...had claypot seafood yee mee...den still go home for dinner...arghh...full...full... full...haha...

den slack till very late at night...Y?

2006-06-23T09:41:00.000+08:00

today very sianz...cause dear dear like very frustrated (go her blog see den u will know)...she quite sad cause of her sister...she now very sianz....maybe today cant haf her smiling all the way...haha...

MORALE OF THE STORY:DUN LET DEAR DEAR HUNGRY AND TIRED AT THE SAME TIME ;)

2006-06-22T22:36:00.000+08:00

i think i going grow wrinkles soon cause if i going BCM i confirm put a very angry face...dunno y also...maybe cause of tt W.C's looks...make me sick...his attitude...his body language...

BUT...

i think we should all gif him a fair chance...cause i can feel tt he is trying his best to teach us...maybe he really talk too straight forward...maybe he really haf an attitude...maybe he's english really sux...think we shouldn't use the bias on him...might not be fair to him...

STRANGE ISN'T IT?

a person like me who hate him to the core is giving him a chance to teach us...is just tt i just dun wanna cause of his attitude, tt make me fail my BCM...

2006-06-14T17:24:00.000+08:00

today my 4th month with dear dear le...so fast...so happy...so memorable...

actually plan to go dear hse there makan supper but i too tired den went to sleep directly...haha...dear dear sad sad...haha....sorry dear...

didn't go sch at all cause i wanna celebrate with dear dear...had everything planned but didn't do everything...haha...cause i lazy go out le...went swimming in the morning den we go straight to my hse there to slack...haha..den didn't go out le...haha...boring~

play tai di all the way till night den i send dear dear home...

2006-06-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

when wei jian, me n dear dear reached sch...i n dear dear still quite happily talking but till we reached 3rd floor...my dear suddenly suddenly bad mood...haha...just like my mother...she also bad mood...say sumthing abt the bangkok trip...haha...

dear n i went to sell kit kat bites...den dear's first customers were her sec school frens...okok...i admit i were angry at them...they were throwing the kit kat bites at dear...tmd...but i cant do anything...dear dear was somehow playing with them...saw her laughing...haha...dodgeball!

they really tmd de...haiz...sry dear...i know they ur frens...sry if offend u by offending them...

wa!the product was selling fast...haha...sold $48 worth of goods...we got 20% commission...haha...tt was $9.60...quite nice...hope can sell again soon...haha...

2006-06-06T18:04:00.000+08:00

today dear dear so sick...she gif me a call saying tt she whole body so weak...haiz...she say she vomit n diarrhea...omg...quite worry for her...den i tell her dun go sch le...

she reached my hse abt 8am...den she really look pale...scared me...but she say she saw me she feel better...haha...make me happy only...after tt she still go vomit n diarrhea...haha...

call her go see doctor but she refused...she dun like to wait...haha...but also correct la...when a person sick...he/she wont haf the feeling to go see doctor right away...so i tell her to rest on my bed...

but she sleep till so late den wake up...no one to talk to me...haha...she too tired le...cause she dirrahea too much le...haha...so very weak...

2006-06-02T23:05:00.000+08:00

today during BCM lesson...i super tu lan...haiz...tmd...

one of my frens say me i'm useless...hmm...am i tt useless?so hurting...make me no mood for the rest of the day...

den tt stupid BCM teacher...fuck him!tmd is like ytd talking abt zac puting his hand into his pockets...adjusting his penis...den today still continue to talk...make me super tu lan...den still talk how her daughter adjust her bra straps...is like personal things den he still tell every1 in the class...does he haf no shame? all those ppl tt he called for presentation...okok...i admit tt quite funny for ppl like chee beng,n the other gal...but i never laugh...so full of craps n tt time i also nearly blew up...haha...den tt stupid faiq still go up talk...tmd...think he really tt great? real CRAPS...dun even understand wat he talking?never go straight to the point...

i HATE his body language...super lots of it...haiz...no wonder wei jian say he is a AV nan zu jiao...really suit him...got the looks,got the actions...haha...

today zac so active...was laughing non-stop...talking craps non-stop...haha...dunno y he so high...

as usual...dear still so hardworking collecting money at seed centre...haha...she now a rich gal...haha...she not tt slacking gal tt she always mention le...more mature n hardworking to keep things going...she can stress on studies till she will cry...dear...i help u get high results for ur last semester k?

2006-06-01T12:58:00.000+08:00

my dear changed new hairstyle today...i like it!...she look mature n nice...

BUT

as usual she say NOT NICE...

and maggie say dear never wash hair...haha...so sad...

haha...bo bian...she like tt say i alo cant do anything...den during MTP lesson...she tied up her hair...den become the usual her...tt 1 i also like...haha...but only sianz 1/2

haha...

not much happen...till during CDN

tmd...dunno y also feel frustrated...haiz...mood swings again...haha...but one of the grp say sumthing tt i dun like...haiz...

went to my dear void-deck as usual...but we did sumthing tt i enjoyed alot...haha...is volleyball n dodgeball...but with different kind of ball..."tissue paper"...omg...haha...but really enjoyed it...haha...though it is stupid...dear dear is really a volleyball pro...she beat me 20-13...haha...its a thrashing...n draw in dodgeball...really sux in sports...need to train up...maybe need go more SW lesson...haha...

so tired but sumhow i feel awake...maybe cause i haven done my essay for trip to thailand...haha...and also wait for my dear to finish watching Da Chang Jin...haha...

*yawnz*

2006-05-31T21:15:00.000+08:00

Once again...I'm lazy...haha

never go school in the morning...

went swimming with dear dear...haha...forget to bring goggles this time round...omg...den dear dear like very not happy with me...gif me angry face n nag at me...haha...but i learn new style...okok...just know how to float...haha...at first like very noob/stupid...every time just sink down...haha...but pratice made perfect...haha...i done it!

actually i'm happy but dunno dear happy ma...cause she like so angry with me abt not bringing the goggles...

went sch at 12 plus...pass consent forms to dear's fren...den went for DS with SH...like so stupid...waste time with him...he talking craps!haha

den 4.45 we went watch DaVinCi code...haha...my dear longed wanted to watch this show...not a bad show...but i doze off...haha...overall....nice show...

had cheese potato chips for tibits...yucks!so er xin...eat till wanna vomit...dear dear also...haha...she after eating...her face changed...haha...she also wanna vomit le...haha...den sent her home...

reached home eat le den went sleep...haha...too tired...plus no 1 wanna talk to me at home...haha...sry dear...never wait for u...^^

2006-05-30T15:00:00.000+08:00

had my MTP CA in the morning...wasn't as hard as i expected...haha...think my dear will get higher marks den me...haha...thx dear for helping me to recap during the bus journey...just finished my BCM test(listening comprehension)also...omg...it was alot more easier than my 'O' level listening comprehension...haha...so straight forward...

feel so relax now...cleared of tests for now...haha...maybe tml gonna watch DaVinCi code tml with dear dear...haha...let's see how it goes...

2006-05-29T13:17:00.000+08:00

never went for first lesson...haha...sick ma...fa sao...haiz...so uncomfortable...but when dear dear come to my house...sumhow feeling ok...

den we went for mp lesson...j low give us a revision paper to do...den is like diff from her focus area...but i dun care much...just go study her previous forcus area...when doing the paper...saw my dear dear really really stress...hardly saw her tt stress...so i decided to bring her watch movie...watched X-men...quite a nice show...haha...

den i went to my dear dear's house to study for MTP...haha...wanted her to score well for tml paper...so i always say repeat...haha...dunno if she will find it fan ma...haha...she like totally diff person le...from a happy go lucky gal to a like to study gal...haha...really saw her stress till she cry...in my mind i only wanted her to score well...maybe try her very best...den no regrets...haha...sry dear if i really got talk loudly at u today...

reach home at abt 11pm...den mother tell me abt cousin stuffs...i was quite mad at him...spit si ta...tmd de...not ur car care so much for?haiz...attitude...haha...

2006-05-28T13:03:00.000+08:00

today meeting my dear's fren to gif her birthday present...we went to parkway parade...like so long never go there le...now like totally a changed place...no more my fav big big acarde...miss my big robot...haha...tt's was nong nong time ago...haha...

We went to shop for joyce's present...saw this tigger...found it quite cute...den also bought 1 wtp for my dear dear...haha...den went for food fare...

lots n lots of food...all quite nice...haha...eat here eat there...

but most importantly is not all the above...today's post topic is AM I TT SCARY?!
haha...y?dear dear's fren bf like so scared of me like tt...like need my dear to be our middle man to chat...haha...omg...maybe he also like me...very quiet de...innocent guy like me...haha...

dear dear's reaction confirmed is -.-lll

sad sad...hahaz...

2006-05-26T21:19:00.000+08:00

today got some welcome party for entrepreneur club...i think it was quite a success this semester cause quite alot of ppl turned up for the meeting...

den we had game, grooming course n refreshment...^^

we played a game called "ah bang"...haha...quite a stupid game but it's quite nice...not really wanna win tt game cause is like i started to feel sick n wanted to sit down ASAP...but this guy called alex like to think he very pro...so my aim was to let him die...haha...n i manage to kill him ^^...n when he was down...the game had stopped...haha...my dear n i and 2 other people were the winners of tt game...^^

den we went for our grooming course...ms yeo was the person-in-charge...quite a nice lady...know how to talk craps...den we had a grp work...abt wat guys dun like abt gals n wat gals dun like abt guys...den still remember some points wat the gals dislike abt gals...diggin nose...diggin nose got fault meh? is like everyone will do 1 ma...just dun do it in front of other ppl can le...n 1 more is act cool...den tt ms yeo say ya lo...got small eyes den still go wear sunglasses...den later take off de shi hou...all gals run away...haha...like shooting me...sad sad...

she still teach us how to do handshake...so lucky she choose to shake with me...den i was like so tired n sick le...also no mood to shake her hand...haha...den she still force me to hold her hands tight tight...haha...bo bian...just grab her hands lo...dunno will she feel pain anot...haha

den after tt we went for refreshment...got curry puffs, pandan cake, banana muffin, etc...all quite fav to me...but no mood to eat...cause not feeling too well...haha...but still got eat some...cause i hungry ^^

i can say tt everything went quite smoothly for today...haha...so gd...maybe cause with dear dear...

2006-05-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

just came back from dear's house...was slacking at her fav place...we talked lots n lots of craps....dunno y...i felt so relax...this feeling hardly happen...so so happy to see her though we always see each other in school everyday...undescriptive feeling...really enjoyed talking to her...had lots of fun also...

i realise tt love is really growing fast within us...love had gone deep...cant really dun see her for just 1 sec...dunno how to survive in NS...haha...

sry dear...maybe just now i too tired le...den gif u a weird look...haha...but honestly...i really feel very happy just now...sumhow i think some strange energy is rushing thru me...so overjoyed & active...^^

2006-05-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

really tired lo...is like dun even wanna go school de...but is like dear dear quite happy she bought her PE shirt...haha...dun wanna let her buy tt PE shirt for nothing...so i just go lo...haha...

during our SW...we had 2 rounds of running at the track...was like so tired...dunno y ytd when i went to near my dear house to run...everything was fine...but today like 'tyre flat'...haha...

everything was fine till...when we played street soccer...we had 3 different groups...actually my grp was i,boss,joyce...but saw my dear in another grp,so i swap secretly...haha...den my new grp was wilson,terence,dear,nina,and me...not really happy with the grp(cause of sum1) but somehow my dear was like so overjoyed when she played...maybe cause this is her fav sport ba...i also dunno y she got the energy...haha...in tt grp i like so useless...never scored anything...haha...so weak...but my dear like scoring till like no 1 business...haha...got all attention...hmm...so gd...i like being left out...even my dear left out me...haha...cause she scored so many times...she too happy for herself...laughing so loudly...but when i saw her so happy...i also smile...is like hardly can let her so happy de...maybe my lame joke make her laugh like tt also...haha...i no attention at all...even my grp members also like dun feel like passing ball to me...6 players in a grp but is like only 5 playing...i only useful b4 the start of the game...when we cheer...haha...sad case right?haha...

2006-05-21T22:51:00.000+08:00

really is a long day today...hmmmm...so bored..........

actually at the morning...mother decided to go swimming but somehow she lazy le...den we never go swiming le...at home nothing to do...just on the computer n play games...cause i know today my dear accompany her father go buy air cooler...haha...so gd...

from morning 10am-6pm cant see my dear...so torturing...only can use my games to stop missing her badly...

b4 my mother went out for her shopping...she come 2 my room and ask me:
Mother:is this shirt nice?(she was wearing a low cut black shirt plus a purple top inside)
Me:Quite nice...but it is low cut...
Mother:ya...so i wear tt purple top inside...
Me:(thinking of my dear)i dun like my gf to wear sumthing like tt...cause i think exposed too much le...
Mother:really?I also dun like when those perverts keep looking at me...so irritated...
Me:tt's y...
Mother:but u guys r very strange...like to look at girls wearing these...but dun like own gf to wear...
Me:ya..correct la...but is like own gf ma...who 1 his gf 2 wear sumthing like tt den let other 1 c...

den mother left the room...I recalled back...actually quite true lo...is like guys like c other gals wear less...but dun wan own gf 2 wear less...strange isn't it?haha...

i know my dear also like to wear spaghetti straps but i forbid her to wear...cause like show too much le...but know she like not happy lo...so just wanna say wear anything u like...k?

abt 6pm plus den she come my house...we stay here awhile den went out for desserts...had ice grass jelly...quite cooling...was nice...den for tt 1-2 hrs we were playing cards at her void deck...haha...was winning all the way...send her home at abt 11pm plus den went home to sleep...haha...

2006-05-20T23:34:00.000+08:00

today is my dear's fren birthday...hmm...actually not really want to go 1...but is my dear's best fren leh...dun wan her fren later other time never call her out...so i just follow lo...we ate steamboat...first time eat soup de steamboat...haha...dun think the food is nice...maybe cause DUN HAV MY FAV FRYING FOOD...CANT FRY...haha...but very happy cause my dear with me...but tt's always de...but somehow felt isolated cause i hardly know everyone there except my dear n joycelyn...sry dear...i like so isolated den u also pei wo isolated...shld just talk ma...no need bother me...^^ was like first day in sch...haha...so quiet de...bo bian...cant help being isolated cause is some ppl i dunno...sry dear...dunno got spoilt ur mood ma...but quite happy lo...dunno y also...

2006-05-18T23:48:00.000+08:00

was liek so bored at my MP lesson den my dear was like so hardworking...actually all my classmates so hardworking except me...i was like so slacking den they so hardworking...haha...picture proven!haha...How can i not buck up when she so hardworking?haha...dear...dun work too hard leh...will stress me de leh...haha...

2006-05-18T10:35:00.000+08:00

was thinking abt my bad points...den realise tt i got so many...haha...nvm...who dun haf bad points?just willing to change can le...i like so many things restricted my dear...all is like her daily lives...hmm...see her suffering i also sad...ytd when i went acc to smoke with her..she ask me a few questions...i realise tt i'm a controversial person...hm...sry dear...cant be like other people...dear,since u like say not everything must tell me..den ok lo...nvm dun force u le...

only just now...make my dear angry again...forget wat i said...but she mistaken tt i say "go smoke again ar?"...i was like huh?...i never say tt lo...den she angry le...though u say not not happy but know u now still little bit not happy...but sry...i really never say tt...sry sry...let u misunderstand again...

2006-05-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

hmm...dunno y started to liu lei now...haiz...maybe my heart is crying...omg...is liek a guy crying...so gay...see tt b4?haha...

actually i got swear sumthing very serious...if i angry again at my dear,will die horribly...n think i done it...so the curse dunno when will take place...so if i really leave u all...dun be sad...lost me, u still need to continue life...the earth wont stop cause of me...

just wanna say...cherish every moment now cause u wont know wat will happen the next sec...maybe i'm petty n u'll think i think too much but just dun wan my dear to be sad again...if i really kena the curse...know u will find a better person den me,only know how to make u sad...

hope i'll just stay alive 2 see u again...

2006-05-15T15:20:00.000+08:00

today quite happy at first...cause today get my pay...haha...was like waiting so long lo...maggie...not mean to always fan ni de abt the pay...haha...got the pay already n wei jian also reutrn the $50 to me...haha...den now can go watch movie with my dear...n eat gd food...

BUT...

after my BCM end at 10am...was walking behind my dear...den got this asshole show middle finger at my dear...at first i dunno wat he doing cause i always never go look at other people...den i ask my dear wat happen...den she say tt is another asshole's fren...i was like so so so MAD...y tt asshole go show middle finger?Never think anything...i just go to tt asshole class...but my dear go stop me...haiz...cant swallow this insult!...dun ever let me catch u again...or u face it...tmd...haiz...cant yin xiong jiu mei...haha...

To those asshole's frens...Come'on, no balls ar? come find me la...fuck...disturb hongyi for wat?n for tt asshole,dun let me know u got say anything bad to hongyi's frens...u dare come find me la...so childish...call ur frens do all this stupid things for wat?no balls...

U wan play black or white?say it out la...ball-less...fuck

*different colour represent different asshole!

2006-05-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

hmm...today as usual got meet my dear...but is at my house lo...cause i too lazy go out...haha...actually i just wanna see her...dun haf the feeling to go out...haha...

went to mac for dinner...real full...haha...den also haf chat...hmm...den abt 9plus i send her home...we stay at her void-deck till 10 plus...haha...was making film...she was my award-winner actress...haha...had a great fun with her...always do...^^

on my way back home...she msg n ask me a question...den i found tt i dun really know how to make a gal happy...hmm...real sad...i always think tt i know wat the gal is thinking...but i was wrong...i completely dunno wat my dear is angry abt n still was angry with her y she so fierce to me...haiz...my stupid mindset...sry dear...dunno how to console u n to hong u...

i also know i restricted u to many things...u might feel uncomfortable...e.g. cant wear clothes tt u like...but for smoking...i really wont feel angry le...cause u really do everything for my sake...tt packet of cigarettes is the prove...

2006-05-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

wat a great day to start...

today was still like a normal day to me until maggie msg wei jian at tampines interchange saying "tell wee kwang his hair not nice"...i was like -.-lll...haha...so straight forward for?hurt my feelings le lo...haha...

den nvm...but in sch...more ppl like nina,joyce...come to me saying "y u go cut hair?"i was liek telling them..."ok stop it..."but they still happily talking abt me...like so sad...not i want the hairstyle de ma...haha...stupid hairdresser talking den never really go care abt my hair...den she was like happily shaving off my hair...haha...

today so embarrassed lo...but nvm cause my dear say "nice,cute,small boi"haha...dunno whether to be happy or say...say me small boi...haha...nvm first time n last time going there...haha...just find some barber cut more better...haha...

today afternoon...saw maggie so fierce...hardly saw her blow up lo...scary...angry until i nearly kena scolding by her...but i know she not purposely...so nvm lo...haha...

2006-05-09T21:20:00.000+08:00

today never go sch...haha...cause i lazy go n my dear sick...wanna take care of my dear...haha.my dear morning wanna bluff me le...say wat take taxi come den no money gif wan me go down n gif her money...she still tell me hurry up...den i anxiously open the door den i saw her outside the house...omg...she was like happily laughing at me...den my expression is like -.-lll ...haha...but bo bian...not first time le...haha

at my house, she was watching her da chang jin..den i also accompany her watch but until episode 5 or 6...i too tired le...so i go sleep...haha...wake up 1hr plus later...haha...

evening time,i go Genki Sushi eat...together with my dear,my bro, and also my mother...haha...my dear eat chicken teriyaki set...she eat so much...haha...stomachache dun blame me hor...haha...

2006-05-09T01:21:00.000+08:00

is like already 1am plus and i'm still awake...omg...need sleep now...hope today onwards will not make my dear angry anymore...those who read this n know who i'm...stop me if i'm doing this...haiz...really pain to see dear dun wanna talk to me or vice versa...cause i can be so moody until dun wanna say any words de...arghh...y is there such a person liek me...so useless...only can make dear sad...sorry dear...i'll grab the chance n wont let it go le...for now only hope u r able to tell me everything u wanna say just like the old times...really miss it...i swear i wont angry le...if not i'll die horribly...soon pa...swee† dream n *kiss*...my dear...

2006-05-08T14:17:00.000+08:00

hmm...had a very bad quarrel with my dear today...haiz...make me so uncomfortable...cant talk to her...sorry dear...hurt u times n times...was wondering y i like to do tt...

often ask my dear...u never think i petty, short-temper meh...her ans is no...she say no i confirm say ok de cause i trust her...hope she can tahan me ^^...felt so useless...only know how to make my dear cry...haiz...stupid me...understand ur dear can?y make her suffer...arghh.....